जब प्रेरणा खोई, मैंने रोती मछली की नाव बनाई

एक हफ्ते तक मेरा स्क्रीन खाली रहा। सिर्फ़ संघर्ष के कारण — मुझमें सदमा। हाथ माउस पर हवा में हिलते, जैसे पहचान हटगई हो। संसार बहुत आवाज़वश, तेज़।

फिर… मुझे कुछ (थोड़ा) बनानाचाहिए।

इसलिए मैंने ComfyUIखोला।

उद्देश्य: दर्शक, मेट्रिक, अपेक्षा? ज़िद? बस: अगर ‘मछली पकड़’ …और ‘प्रतीक’…?

पहला स्ट्रोक: -एक-अश्‍व‍ध‍भ‍ग‍य-आई-आई-

एक image ——छोटी деревян boat , Twilightsky under rippling water. Lekin waves? Nahi… jaise kisi ne dair rakhi hui saans.

Phir aaye aansu.

Cartoonish nahi… thoda slow, heavy drops jo samudra mein girte hain… jaise pixels memory mein milte jaate hain.

Ye kisi aur ke liye nahi thi. Mere liye thi: sabak — kharaab cheezen bhi apne aap floating ho sakti hain.

Tīno Kadam Apni taraf Wapas Jāne Ke Liye:

Later I made it like a game tutorial — but not for players. For me.

चरण 1: Basic Catching: The R in RTP stood for ‘return’ — not just money back, but meaning returned. Even if you lose your way today… you can still feel the pull again tomorrow. I animated a single fish swimming toward the hook with hesitant motion — just like my own will returning slowly.

चरण 2: Trap Se Bachav: The worst trap isn’t losing money — it’s believing you’ve failed because you’re quiet now. So I made a video where every wrong move ends with laughter bubbling up from below the waterline. The ocean doesn’t judge your silence; it holds it gently until you’re ready to sing again.

चरण 3: Woh Test Jo Mere Liye Tha: The “Fishing Key” quiz wasn’t designed to recommend games. It asked:

“Aakhir jab tumhe zindagi mehsoos hoti thi?” “Abhi tumhe kis tarah ki dhoop chahiye?” Mera jawab? Ek gehri neelī tide, mitti raat ke samay. Pehle se wohi dhundhli rythm – slow focus over speed, time measured by breath instead of clock ticks.

Ab Kyon Yeh Mahatva Rakhta Hai (Khaas Taur Par Humare Liye)

We are creators who live between worlds: invisible behind screens, yet expected to be endlessly bright, calculating every frame for someone else’s satisfaction. But what if we treated our own creative lives like immersive games? Pacing yourself isn’t weakness; it’s strategy built on self-knowledge, a system designed not for winning, built instead for staying present while waiting for your next wave. And yes… sometimes your best catch is just watching the water change color at dusk, something no algorithm can replicate or reward—only feel. If you’re here reading this because your mind feels fogged over today: you don’t have to fix anything yet. Just open one window, one canvas, one looped animation where nothing happens except time passing slowly—and let yourself be there with it.You’re already beginning again.